So for those of you who don't know, who am i kidding...you all know Steve is in Mexico. Well it just so happens that the people I nanny for decided to go on vacation this week as well. I have been home alone all week trying to keep myself busy. I am SO proud of myself though....Most of you know when you come in my house most of it is clean...except for the MASSIVE clutter of shoes that hover around the door. 95% of people comment on it so today i finally decided to do something about it. Me and my BEAUTIFUL mama went to Target (and panera) and i bought this really pretty dark brown wood container thing with slots for shoes. Here is where the proud of myself part comes in...I HAD TO PUT IT TOGETHER. Drill, hammer, splinters...the whole shabang. I've never done this before, but i have always been the kind of person that when i set my mind to something, no one will tell me no. i hate to leave things unfinished so i would prob. break my hand before i would stop.

I did learn some valuable lessons such as...directions say things for a reason. USUALLY they know what they are talking about. If i would have followed them right the first time i wouldn't have had to unscrew half of it and start over. :p but i had fun. I hope Steve likes it!

I have also been doing a major overhaul of the house. I have like four garbage bags full of stuff to throw away or get rid of. Its amazing what you can accumulate in just a year or so in a house. I love my house btw. Well, that was quite a ramble. I am on my way to get some Boston Market for dinner. That is like my favorite place.
Well, after Chick-fil-a of course. :) buh bye!

Hello my lovely xanga friends. Things here are going well. My dad is SLOWLY on the incline towards health which always makes life seem brighter. This weekend Steve and I stayed at the lovely Rump household and watched my cousins (mainly Joey) while their parentals went away for the weekend.. Last night Ria, Jer, Taryn, Andrew, Jake, me and Steve all just hung out here after church. We got pizza and did some major chillaxin. After a time me and Ria ran away to talk about solving world problems..haha and then Taryn joined us for the remainder of the evening. All in all it was a good night. Jake AND Joey both ended up sleeping over their friends houses so at that point Steve and i decided it would be best to just go home and sleep considering we live a mile away from them. Right around the point we decided to leave Joey walks in the door and starts crying (he had been staying over the neighbors house) saying his head hurt and he missed his mom. Thats when nanny Corey kicked in to make things better. :) Needless to say we ended up just spending the night there...

Today Jake was gone and joey just hung around the house and me and husband got some much needed time together to just talk and catch up...we did some major goofing around. He is like the funnest person. ever. i love him. then he had to go up to the church and perform his staffly youth pastor duties while i took joe-man to chuckie cheese. I'll be very happy to not go there for a long time. It is so weird because this is the first NRG/ONEmovement I have missed in FOREVER besides vacation. Its important to be able to step back once in awhile though i guess, but really this time there was no choice because im baby-sitting.

This week should be good....The Olympics are on for the next two weeks which just INSTANTLY makes life better. I have my DVR set to tape ALL of the gymnastics competitions which i will later transfer to VHS. haha I'm so lame...i know. Have a good week...love ya'll!

As promised I am failing miserably at updating this thing....many 'a night I have sat here pondering what to write. Some nights I've decided what I really want to write is to personal so i just don't...and other times and i am just to tired.

Things lately have been kinda crazy in my world and head...To be perfectly honest I have been very confused. I am learning things about myself that i hate. And i always wonder why God lets things about our character come out at the most random times. Things about myself I have realized in the last month or so i never would have thought about myself a year ago. why is that? ugh. dont answer that please. I am also learning things about others that havent been fun.

I heard so many leaders and people in my life talk about how difficult the ministry road is and i have read the stats of people who quit after only 3 years of ministry. It AMAZES me how confident i was that would NEVER be me. How could I or any Christian walk away from God's work...from changing lives?? Boy, what a life lesson to learn at 22. No one is infallible. No matter how much God is working in the midst of what you are doing, Satan is right in there trying to ruin it.

Its so crazy watching God stretch my character. So many times I felt like i was holding on by the tips of my fingers...like i was in a race trying to chase the leader God wants me to be, but i feel like i am stuck in quick sand as i watch my potential fly right past me....because I'm selfish. If I had a PENNY for everytime i said, "God its just too hard to be that person.." i think i could retire comfortably at my ripe old age of 22.

Just when i want to give up God reaches out...and i am able to reach back. its like he sings to me "everything's gonna be alright, rockabye.."


Psalm 42
Why am I discouraged?
      Why is my heart so sad?
   I will put my hope in God!
      I will praise him again—
      my Savior and my God!